Blog 59

This prompt caught me off guard, I initially had to skip it and come back to it. The biggest mistake that I have ever made, that’s an extremely personal question that I don’t think I would even discuss with those closest to me. This brings me to my point: the mistake that I make most often and that effects my life to the greatest degree is that I am a very closed off and private person. It’s hard for me to share things that I deem near to my heart with others.

This affects my personal relationships to an absurd degree and often prevents me from connecting with people to the largest extent possible. There are only a few people that know me and even they don’t get the chance to fully apprehend how complex and far reaching such things go.

I often claim that I am simply introverted. This is true. I don’t turn communication and expression outwards to share it with others, but reflect most of my thoughts and emotions inwards. I’ve been told that I’m cold as a defense mechanism, but this simply isn’t true. I care and I’m not afraid to show it, I just like to keep the most profound aspects of my personality to myself.

I know that this is a mistake when it comes to my social development. I just can’t help making it. It bars me from a lot of the satisfaction that is involved with relationships, and I do it every day.